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Today is saturday and it's a weekend to me but I have no place to go, just staying in my own room in Batu Pahat, Johor. Dont know why, I have a desire to share something I have experience after I listen to a new Christianity Song which I bought few days ago in Salvation Book Store in Summit SubangJaya.

The song called Salvation, which bring a meaning of being saved through the Blood of Jesus Christ. I feel touched no matter how many times I listen to it. I believe some people may have same kind of experience as mine, so here is the lyrics which I should share at here,

Salvation
by John Davis

Long, Long ago, and far away,
I lost my reason to keep on living.
When I gave up on salvation.
Now I wanna hear that station.
God, can You hear me drawing near?

I lost my reason to keep on living.
When I gave up on salvation.
Now I wanna hear that station.

Let it roll.
Let it feel my soul.
Let it makes me whole again.
Let it rain salvation.
Now I wanna hear that station.
God, can you see what's left of me?

I lost my reason to keep on living.
When I gave up on salvation.
Now I wanna hear that station.

Let it roll.
Let it feel my soul.
Let it makes me whole again.
Let it rain salvation.

I lost my reason to keep on living.
When I gave up on salvation.
Then I wanna hear that station.

[finish]

Just a simple song few sentences and repeat it twice along the song playing.

This song reflects my current Christian life. I nearly gave up the Salvation before. But Im coming back to it now. Christianity life is not as simple as this song. The way im drawing back to God facing alot of hindrance which is so called Temptation. Im weak to it but He is strong to it. Through Him everything can done without doubt.

Thanks alot to Jesus. Grace and Mercy of God can set me free of it. By faith to walk along with Jesus.

祝福

当你选择离开， 我已经准备好我的祝福。
两人不能再在一起， 就应该学着珍惜彼此的曾经。
我还在学着， 或许我比较笨， 怎学都不会。

我怀恋我们之间的过去， 甜蜜与恩爱的时刻，
这让我无法去放弃这段感情， 越想就越心寒与痛惜。

可能这已经到了尽头， 无法再做你所谓的普通朋友，
因为我会无法自拔以及越陷越深。。。

我不会后悔爱过你， 也不会觉得你的狠心，
因为你是我爱的最深的人。。。

祝福你啊。。。绝口不提再爱你。。。

sad~~

Can someone tell me how to forget and let go of a girl which u are still loving now??? I feel sad because Im forced to let go and forget about her. Why being forced??? Because she keep on forcing me and pushing me to an end of it. I have no choice and just tell her I will let go. But I know it's impossible to let go a girl which u have put all ur heart into it and somemore I know I did no wrong in it. I can accept the 'normal' friend status which she given to me. But why she still needs to treat me so differently among normal friends. I meant differently bad, extraordinary bad attitude towards me. I feel sad and it affects my career as well. I really cant take it anymore. The way she talk to me really different. When I go through her pictures on FB, her look is so happy and feel nothing about what she told me before. I feel being cheated by her but i dare not to feel like this. Is it possible we can go back to be normal friend again??? Im confused. Maybe it's the time we both not contact each other anymore..but i not dare to do it...because i love her deeply...

Stressful Period

Time is running so fast and never wait for us to take a breathe...I have been living in the working world for almost 6 months. I was very excited when i succeed the interview which my company given to me. I was excited and cant wait for working in the first few months, but the feeling gone and faded away day-by-day. Dont know why I start to worry about tomorrow except weekends. I scared of working because I need to face the problems which come from all directions. Everyday, I need to think out a way to settle and prevent all problems to be happened. Sigh!!! But life still need to go on, problem and stress already become part of my working life...No one is giving me stress but myself. Im a result driven person, and I want to let my boss to see how good I am. haih...but everything is going not as my will. I start to feel panic when i cant get the good result and even start to play tricks to push my customers to give me some orders. This is not good actually to play the tricks like this to get 'PO'. I never study the products I have in my warehouse, until now still not really understand all this. I know only the 'PO'...regret doing this actually...I know my weakness and know what ways need to be improved. Eg. my maturity in solving problems and communication skills which can persuade ppl to put their trust in you. But there is a long way to learn about it.

I need to pray more for this, 'maturity' and 'smarter mind' from God. But I dont know whether God still know me or not...haih...Few hours later will be another challenging day to me. Pray more for a peace in mind, Pray for those problems wont be a hindrance to me to go on the day...

我生病了

Sick Sick Sick...This is my first time to get sick since I started my career after graduate few months ago. There's a terrible feeling in my heart. Keep on thinking lonely and no one can taking care of me while I sick. I need to bear the sickness to drive quite a distance for a clinic, waiting for the nurse to shout my name, buying medicines and drive back to home. I felt terrible along the process, dizziness and yet walking with a heavy body especially head, it brings me a kind of sadness generated in my heart. I asked a question to myself, 'where is my friends?'...The Answer is : No at all...